Over the years, I have explored more and more layers, and revealed more and more details. I have mastered dissection until exhaustion. At a certain point, it was no longer possible for me to hold the components together. Before I knew it, everything fell apart, and darkness fell around me. It crept up in the form of sudden, indefinable health issues, mainly affecting my digestive system. It felt like I no longer wanted to absorb anything. Naturally, my immune system weakened over time. I went through several western medicine treatments and visited countless doctors, but none of them could help me. The darkness spread, and without light, everything looked different. The world I thought was my life seemed very different. Insidiously, the physical suffering began to manifest itself in my psyche. Out of misery, I developed depression. It was an unusual affliction, as I had pulled myself out of dark places before. The significant difference was that this time the dark place was inside me.